“i used to love to dream” is a mixtap/e/ssay that performs hip-hop scholarship using sampled and live instrumentation; repurposed music, film, and news clips; and original rap lyrics. As a genre, the mixtap/e/ssay brings together the mixtape—a self-produced or independently released album issued free of charge to gain publicity—and the personal and scholarly essays. “i used to love to dream” names Decatur, Illinois—the author's hometown—as a reference point for place- and time-specific rapped ruminations about the ideas of growing up, moving away, and pondering one's life choices. At the same time, the tracks attempt to account for moral, philosophical, and ethical dimensions undergirding unease about authenticity, or staying true to oneself and to one’s city or neighborhood, as well as the external factors that contribute to such feelings. Using the local to ask questions about the global, “i used to love to dream” highlights outlooks on Black life generally, and Black manhood in particular, in the United States.
The tracks are presented along with liner notes and a short documentary about the making of the mixtap/e/ssay, and accompanying articles to provide context for the tracks for listeners both in classrooms and outside of them.
Praise / Awards
"While a slew of scholarship over the past twenty-five years has situated hip-hop
as artistic expression with both didactic and symbolic intellectual content,
Carson’s professorial and artistic concerns pushes this assumption to another
level. Carson uses the art of music to participate equally with literature as a form
of cultural criticism."
—Guthrie Ramsey, University of Pennsylvania
"i used to love to dream breaks new ground, speaks to compelling issues in our
time, and is clearly rooted in both scholarship and Black rhetorical traditions,
even as it intervenes in both."
—Adam Banks, Stanford University
"Saying that A.D. Carson’s i used to love to dream is a good listening experience
would be like saying that the experience of being high is a strange breathing
experience, or that the experience of an overdose is a bad measuring experience.
The project cannot be reduced to the sounds, images, texts, and thin genre
descriptions that comprise it. With this disturbingly personal offering, Carson
gives us a dope critical process of inhaling and engaging today’s most pressing
questions about home and national identity, empire and the geography of
oppression, and the intimate politics of survival and transformation. I urge you to
spend time with this project. Submerge your entire body in it. Argue with it.
Demand that it explain why it approaches things the way it does. I’m not sure if
disciplines—as currently embodied—deserve or can handle this hit, but all of us
need what is revealed on this journey."
—Chenjerai Kumanyika, Rutgers University
"i used to love to dream is a historic recording and piece of popular music scholarship. It is also a major addition to the catalogue of great hip-hop music. Accordingly, A.D. Carson should be celebrated for the integrity and character of his work."
- Journal of Popular Music Studies
2021 PROSE Awards Subject Category Winner
News, Reviews, Interviews
Featured on Passengers Journal |
: Essay in NPR on Carson's poem | 5/24/2021
: Interview on Auralia.Space with the University of London | 04/23/2021
: Interview on The EdSurge Podcast | 04/21/2021
: Article on News18.com Buzz | 04/09/2021
: Feature on Making It Up | 04/07/2021
: Interview on BYU Radio about i used to love to dream
: Interview on WORT 99.9 FM about i used to love to dream
? | 03/23/2021
: Featured as one of the Aspen Institute's 'Five Best Ideas of the Day' | 03/23/2021
Feature in Gizmodo Brasil
(Portuguese) | 03/17/2021
: Article on The Conversation US
: Feature and interview on PMBiP I 02/03/2021
: Feature on The Poetry Vlog
: Feature on UVA Today I 12/08/2020
: Feature on Current Awareness Portal
(Japanese) | 11/16/2020
: Mention on UVA's Ampersand
: Reviewed on Rock & Roll Army (Spanish) I 11/10/2020
: Featured on Herald & Review I 10/21/2020
: Feature on 16 Bars
(German) | 10/12/2020
: Feature on Forschung & Lehre
(German) | 10/11/2020
: Feature from Millikin University | 10/09/2020
: Feature on Inside Higher Ed
: Panel discussion with author on Straight No Chaser with Dr. Julius Bailey
: Feature on The Daily Progress
: Feature on C-Ville
: Feature on UVA Today
: Author Talk with the University of Michigan Press | 8/20/2020